NaNoWriMo is almost over. A month of concentrated writing culminating in a 50,000 word first draft. I signed up. I started out strong. I failed miserably! Am I upset? No. I learned something about myself.
I am not NaNoWriMo material.
It’s not that I don’t really have the time. It’s not that I don’t have ideas. I lack discipline. Plain and simple. Writing is hard work for me. Very rarely do the words flow from me like a river. It’s more like getting blood taken at the Doctors office. With my small veins, I usually get stabbed in each arm before they have a go at the backs of my hands where they (hopefully) get a slow stream of vital fluid flowing. Yeah, that’s a very good description of how I write…painfully, torturously slow.
You don’t even want to know how long it’s taken me to get this far!
It’s not that I don’t like writing. But I have to admit, I would much rather “have written” than “be writing”. There are lots of other things that I like doing better. So many ways to be distracted. I confess, sometimes I go looking for distractions. They aren’t hard to find. Life is full of them. Despite all the distractions and lack of discipline, I do still get some writing done. I managed to write 4,000 words before I threw in the NaNoWriMo towel. I know, it’s not much, but it got me working on a story idea I had shelved and I am 4,000 words closer to the end of that story than I was before.
NaNoWriMo hasn’t been a success but it hasn’t been a total waste of time either. I’ve learned about myself which is always a good thing. Will I try again next year? Probably not. There are some distractions that I refuse to let my writing distract me from. It does make me realize that I need to try harder to squeeze in a little writing time though.
Discipline. That’s what I need. And before I get any offers from all you freaks out there, I’m talking “self” discipline. No, you can’t watch. Move it along, there’s nothing to see. I just gotta make myself sit, open file, think, write. Sounds simple enough, right?
We shall see. I’ll get back to you on that.